Well clearly I have quite a lot of work to do around integration. I am tired of doing this. I spend months at a time living in my lower chakras – ego, food, addiction, sense pleasure etc. – utterly forsaking my spiritual life. Then something triggers an upward shift in my energy flow and I spend months in my upper chakras – blissed out on God without my feet on the ground.
I need to integrate these energies in my heart. It is a common misconception that Kundalini energy only flows up, but it actually flows both ways – it is a circuit. But certain chakras that are closed block that circuit. I know it is mainly my heart chakra that is blocking my flow. I’ve known that for some time now. But I’m working on it… now… again.
Interesting story about that actually… I wear a necklace nearly everyday – a sterling silver serpent (kundalini) with gemstones along it’s body that represent the 7 chakras. A few months ago one of the gemstones fell out. The green one. The heart chakra. Well a few weeks ago I finally got around to having it replaced. The new stone is noticeably brighter and clearer than the others. Hmmmm…
What prompted my return to my spiritual life? There were probably quite a few factors to be honest, but one thing in particular that instigated the shift was a return to kirtan – chanting.
“Krishna goes on to say that there are several paths to God, according, not to people’s beliefs, but to each person’s own temperament.” I came across that last night in a book I am reading about the Bhagavad Gita. I love it!
As a singer, chant and sacred song are my path. I must have had a past life doing a lot of it because the moment I begin to chant it’s as if the door to heaven opens. I do not feel God’s presence anywhere or in any way as deeply as I do when I am singing the names of the Divine. I am always eager to share kirtan with others, but I must realize that not everyone will experience the same thing I do. Everyone needs to find their own path.
But I’ll share anyway. 
This recitation of the Hanuman Chaleesa in particular is what is driving my chariot at the moment. (To use a metaphor from the Gita.) It is an ancient sanskrit hymn to Lord Hanuman. It is pure beauty to me. My goal is to have it memorized by the new year. (It’s three pages long!)
A few of my favorite lines…
Durgama kaaja jagata ke jete
Sugama anugraha tumhare tete
Every difficult task in this world
Becomes easy by your grace.
Bhoota pisaacha nikata nahin aawai
Mahaabeera jaba naama sunaawai
Ghosts and goblins cannot come near,
Great Hero, when your name is uttered.
Naasai roga hare saba peeraa
Japata nirantara Hanumata beeraa
All disease and pain is eradicated,
Brave Hanuman, by constant repetition of your name.
It is good to be back. It is good to be singing again. It is good to be walking my path. Do share… what is your path?
